I'll put pen to paper

I'll put pen to paper and write. But this time I'll do it with hope in sight. turn the page away from the pain and rage today. Start a new chapter in the story I'm writing, this dull story thats beginning to get exciting. I think I finally am getting an idea so I'm not gonna think about regretting an fear. It's not usually writers block that prevents me from this, but this perspective is inventing some bliss, some satisfaction because it's not about interaction with anyone else apart from my self and how I may grow from illness to health. I need to stop worrying about the lost, the losing, the one's who might leave. I need to know and truly believe, I can stand on my own two feet. It 's myself I need to befriend or even meet. I've needed to get to grips with where my heads at, need to come to terms with I'm me and thats that. Wouldnt even recognise myself if i was looking at my reflection, ive hated myself, been my own worst rejection. I'll put pen to paper and write something new, about a new challenge, something I need to do. Sort out my life, my head, put all those ridiculous thoughts to bed. If I finally start to think about what the shrinks go on about, there's no doubt i could change for the best, so this is less of a story I'm writing but a test that I'm fighting. Gonna really try now, watch you'll see, gonna write a better description of me. Gonna devote my energy, all my time spending, just to make sure this has a happy ending. I'll put pen to paper and write. Gonna try now, really, with all my might.

RADIOHEAD - CREEP