I worry when you are in love again

I worry about when I hear you are in love again

I will lose myself in my pain

Better to have loved and lost they say

I say I continue to lose in love by day

My heart still hurts in hunger for you

and I know that you have not even a clue

ignorant that my memory replays all the romance swept away

like ocean breathes brushes of wave on sandy beach

leaves the sand thirsty but unable to reach

back out to sweet, sweeping, serendipity sea

that’s how much this means to me.

It’s still alive the thought, of how you said I was amazing

Each bittersweet bit of memory my eyes glazing

I remember how you kissed me and said there was no other

And this suffocating still smothers me

A familiar smell may intoxicate my nostrils, ignites the air

I forget not how you smell and fills me with despair

I like to pretend I no longer have these thoughts

When truly tears me

And then it scares me

One day my world will drop

Like when you drop something breakable

It is unmistakable

Something beautiful here dies

No good but grief in suprise

Will see you saying the same thing and I’m praying to be blind

Life can be so unkind,

If there is a God, why does he make me hurt like this

Why does he make me remember your kiss

I’ll show up with brave face and hope that it will replace

How much I miss you

And how much I want to kiss you.

In your arms I felt like I could stay forever,

Wishing for that time we’d stay together

My great wound is that I never left your arms

Even after saw past your petty charms.

How cruel you were when you sent me away

And how I cried nearly every day

Cried until I were drained of energy and saturated with grief

You see you really were a cunning thief

It’s probably to cliché

Just to say

You stole my heart like a midnight mugger

Makes my soul still in its sorrow shudder.

You are an unwanted guest still present in my everyday life

I got used to it, came to terms with the stinging strife

But you’re still here, inside me

So I still wish you were here beside me.

I loved you, but do not anymore but yet I still love the way it was.

Hence I wish when I pray to the very stars

Why do we love and lose

Why must I still wear these shoes?

That ache my feet

I walk with you in my every step and breathe you with every gasp.

My chest tight with wanting you to be in my grasp

You said I was amazing

And now I am gazing

At the stars on clear and clean throw of night

And somehow you are still holding me tight.

But alone, without you I’ve lost the fight.

I hope I can finally leave you, the way you left me,

Until then I am waiting

Waiting

But not anticipating because I know you are not here with me

And I envy that you are free.

I worry about when messenger brings that news

I will break

I break

Just tell me I was not a mistake.

I walk life with the memory of you.

"I GO TO SLEEP AND IMAGINE THAT YOU'RE HERE WITH ME"

Had to stick Adele on didn't I? I wrote this poem before I heard this song but she managed to do a good job of getting me mopey about my ex as well.